It’s 12 at midnight and I should be sleeping but all I can think about is how every atom of my soul felt that afternoon when you pressed your lips against mine. It was as if galaxies grew inside my chest and every broken piece in my soul was put together. And we kissed till our lips burned and we kissed till there was no breath left and we kissed till laughter oozed out of your heart and I remember I smiled. I smiled because you laughed and goddamn there’s nothing better than the taste of laughter. I remember feeling safe. Your hands were the bed and your chest was the pillow, you lips were my comfort and your heart was my home. Every time you wrapped your arms around me it felt like nothing could go wrong. It felt like there was a universe in my body instead of just an off beat heart and broken ribs . It felt like the sky was blue again. It felt like you were under my skin and for that moment I wasn’t rubbing myself to stop the chills from rising. Oh that day baby you kissed me so deep I forgot whose air I was breathing. And for a moment not being able to breathe felt right. I touched you. My naked heart was so close to your naked heart that I could feel it dancing towards me. Oh you hugged me so tight and you whispered in my ears in that voice of yours that could make flowers grow. You whispered that you loved me and you apologised for everytime you fucked up. And you hugged me tighter and we spooned and I fit into you so perfectly and you said you’d never leave. And I believed you. For once it felt like you were gonna stay. So I gave up the idea of being without you.
But fucking hell you left. And maybe a part of me knew but it still hurt you know?
So I’m guessing things change, feelings fade and people move on. What once meant the world turns into a little speck of dirt. And now it’s 12 at midnight and you’re sleeping and I’m lying awake thinking about you. Or what we could have been.